Tuesday, July 29, 2008
"Frost i'th' Dog Days! Strange!"
As I was sitting in my air-conditioned apartment today, looking through some older photos of my grandson Micah and missing him terribly, I got to thinking about how pathetically contradictory and hypocritical I am--hence, the title of this post (from John Webster's play The White Devil). I know John Webster could not even have dreamed of such a thing as air conditioning existing in the year 1612, but I imagine he would not be surprised--if he could suddenly be transported to the 21st century--to find out that people really haven't changed since his time, in spite of all that has transpired since then. We still isolate ourselves from each other, sometimes just to selfishly enjoy what we think we deserve, and sometimes to avoid being honest. On our walk through the local park this morning, my husband and I were discussing how surprising but lamentable the fact that one can still find bigotry thriving in this country today. You hear it everywhere: on television, on the radio, in movies, in music, even in the jokes that people tell....and laugh at.
I blog about saving wetlands, and then I take such pleasure in remembering how Micah played with the water hose for at least an hour. I call myself Roamin' and Bloomin', but at the moment I'm not doing much of either of those commendable activities. I like to think of myself as an altruist, wanting to become a massage therapist so I can help people find stress relief, but I find myself revealed as a negativist and narcissist. The revelation came to me after I nicked myself with the razor while shaving my legs in the shower (wasting more water!). I waited for the blood to start flowing down the back of my leg, but it took a while. While I waited, I thought about how many times I checked e-mail today: probably at least a dozen times. Had anyone left either a cryptic or uplifting message? Were there any new comments on any of my posts? It's shameful, that's what it is. If a blog is supposed to be a reflection of the person who created it, this one reflects a fraud and a hypocrite.